Hello Goodbye
I waited a long time to see when these words would end. And that’s tonight, my friends.
Something’s going to change next week. I’m not going to write the truth anymore. Too many people have started reading my words; I don’t want them to know me. I love honesty, I love being vulnerable; but I don’t think everyone deserves to read my soul. I don’t want everyone to think they understand me.
Next week, I’ll share a piece of fiction. I haven’t decided where I’ll go from there. I’ll take the week to think. Maybe I’ll change my cadence, the length or style of the words I publish. We’ll see; but (here), I won’t write the truth again. Not everyone gets to know.
I loved splaying my heart out through stories, for weeks and weeks since October of ‘22. It felt good. It felt real. I felt connected to everyone I barely knew. But tonight, I’m saying goodbye to one way you got to feel me.
I’m excited, and I’m sad. I felt these pieces coming to an end for a few months now. It’s gotten progressively harder to share my state of being. When I started, I promised myself I would be transparent; I would act the same way I do when I meet a beautiful stranger: I share my soul. But you’re not strangers anymore.
I can’t wait to explore another realm of spectacular tales, soft emotions and misinterpreted situations. I can’t wait to make things up. I’ve been writing a piece of fiction for a few weeks now; I can’t wait to share it next week. It’s about a man and his life. That’s all I can say for now because I don’t even know where I’ll go with him. To India? Oman? Or maybe he’ll just stay at home; and I’ll write my story about him in a familiar place. We’ll find out - and I mean both of us when I say that.
Thank you, tremendously, for reading and loving my work. Thank you for clicking the heart button and sending me emails when you had thoughts to convey too. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for bringing up my questions in client meetings and at dinner tables. Thank you for disagreeing with me. And thank you for allowing pieces of me into your hearts.
See you soon and somewhere new. 🦒💙
Thanks for sharing such raw, beautiful words with us, Yehudis.
I get what you mean about feeling like not everyone needs to know our depths and the more people reading, the more constraining it can be to open up.
You have a way of leading the way, Yehudis. I look forward to how you unravel what comes next. So long as you carry on writing!